Smell Of Solitude

Cold wall. The whirring sound of a broken fan. Distant sound of traffic. Quiet of the night. Stale smell of trapped air.

Fingers typing. Faster and faster. Vainly trying to maintain conversations.

Hungry stomach. Light headed. Smoke in the air. Empty space.

Wet eyes. Surge of anger. Fighting self. Helplessness. Embarrassment. Resolve. Repeating. Cyclic.

No hope.

Tempting end. Craving for a conclusion. Taking control. Loosing control. Holding on. Wanting to let go.

Brief pain. Permanent relief.